This is it. This is the night before Kindergarten! When the Heck did this happen?!! I mean, I get that I am no spring chicken. I get that, as the rule goes, I may even be one of the older moms around the classroom. But seriously, how is this possible?? How is my baby girl who I breastfed and slept with and nurtured and kissed and loved and took to the park and just loved more than anything in the whole world about to forge into this world that is her own, that is not a part of me?!
I am grateful that despite the tumultuous events of the first years of her life, she has grown already into such a brave, intelligent, gorgeous, sweet, amazing, friendly, beautiful girl.
I have no doubt that Bella Dauphine will kick Kindergarten ass, lol.
The harder struggle is the fear of how Sarin will do. The little sister has always had the bigger sister to protect her. I feel like I am throwing a three year old to the wolves! Luckily she had her big sis at her new Oregon daycare for the first couple of weeks but I know it will be a very difficult adjustment. Bella had me all to herself the first three years of her life. Sarin had Bella. Now Sarin has to find her strength. I know she can do it though, I know she can rock it.
The lunch is packed, the new shoes are bought, the new first day of school dress is hanging (for both of them), the books have been read, the children are fast asleep. This is being a mommy. This is selfless love. All I want, all I care about, is that my babies are okay. That no one hurts their feelings too badly, that no one makes them cry, and if they do cry they come home and cry to me so I can fix it.
They have been prepared, they have been given extra love. Pretty sure their daddy has given them a billion more treats in the last month than they deserve!! We spent the weekend as a family, hiking, joking, loving, giving timeouts (hey, they are young and need them!!), and thanks to daddy, we found a place to move to so we can have our own space again soon and our family that we moved here for, whom we love so much can have their space back.
My baby girl is starting school. Here’s hoping she is as much as a geek as I was……It’s way cooler these days. :)